Since the beginning of 2017 I’ve developed a new habit. I’ve mentioned before that I’m not looking for a relationship right now, and that I would never want to jump into anything that I’m not ready for. But every once in a while I get lonely. I am human after all.
In those moments of feeling alone and wishing I had my buddy for life, I write. To him. I’ve gotten in the habit of writing letters, each one of which begins with the phrase, “to the boy I’m going to marry:”
I’m not sure if the boy I end up marrying will ever see these letters. I still haven’t decided. But it’s a great outlet for me when I need to talk to that someone who, unfortunately, I have not had the pleasure of meeting yet.
I have decided to include one of my letters in this post to give a little bit of an idea of what I’m talking about. And to suggest to you, the reader, that if you’re ever feeling lonely to try this out.
So, without further ado…
To the boy I’m going to marry:
Do you ever think about how much fun we’re going to have? I think about that all the time. I can’t wait to just explore with you. And go on adventures with you. It’s gonna be so fun. I’m not trying to wish away the present, because I really do love my life currently, but sometimes I think it would be really nice to have that partner in crime already. You know, just to have someone who always wants to do things with me.
I wonder where I’ll find you. Where will our epic life adventure begin? Is it gonna be in New York? Will we wander together through the Concrete Jungle in our coats and hats and eat lemon cake (the best lemon cake in the world, btw) at Levain up on the Upper West Side? Is it gonna be in Los Angeles? Will we explore La La Land in our shorts and tees and go surfing (maybe I could learn lol) on the beach?
What about baseball? Do you love the Orioles like I do? Will we be rooting against each other at ball games? What team is your team? I guess I could learn to love them also… just as long as it’s not the Yankees, Red Sox, Toronto, Kansas City, Pirates, or Nationals. If it’s not any of those teams then we should get along quite nicely 😉
I cannot wait to meet you and start our adventure. I hope you know how wonderful you are and how loved you are. I hope you know and trust that God is holding your future. I hope you don’t worry about that. I pray for you all the time. I pray that your heart is so wrapped in and in love with Jesus that I never once have to worry about how you’re going to love me. And most of all I just pray that you’re happy. I hope life is treating you well and you’re enjoying every crazy second of it. I know I am. 🙂
love,
the girl you’re going to marry
Stay sweet, y’all.
Caroline